Rants...

Kicking back… having some Redoxin®… chilling to the tunes of Taishan… its another lonely night in Bangsar, Jeanie has been away since Tuesday and I’ve been missing her ever since… It defies logic and all convention sometimes as to how close I’ve gotten with her over the past 11 months… Its like all my thoughts of are of her and us… its not about me and my own naked ambition anymore but more… of a joint effort… I don’t see things in the singular sense anymore, like I used to… its all about us these days…

I’ve grown really fond of her in the past few months… sure we had the tiff here and there but nothing major…I never completely lost it like how I used to… I take it that I want it to work out between us very much… Hmmm there I go again… us… am blogging from home now as I am suddenly filled with thoughts and I have no one to share them with but a big black box that is my media home centre…Kudos to the peeps at Acer® for designing this PC for idiots…

Work is hectic to say the least… I’m continuously engineering ways to keep the demand for the products strong… a good product doesn’t necessarily sell well as I found out over my tenure at the office… A good product requires the same amount of effort… as selling sand to the Arabs and ice to the Eskimos…

Am working hard to rake in the dollars and cents as well as to get kitted with a brand new automobile as the one I have, bless it… is not what that adequate for a twosome… No disrespect to the people that designed it but… I think of it as a blackhole which continuously eats up my savings like a fat guy with the munchies… Am gunning to list the products in the pharmacies by June… A short time away and there’s lots to do yet… Have to secure the funding, work out the deals, convince the pharmacies that the product is what they want and have to somehow convince Management that I’m right… I’m fighting a losing battle everyday… I’m getting tired… Health hasn’t been fantastic of late and I don’t want to talk about it as everyone else has their fair share of problems…

The mind is plagued with what-ifs and the body is weary… a lot of times I know not what to do… Nor who to seek guidance from… It’s a burden that I must carry alone… as always… I am alone… I’ve never been close to the family… I do not blame anyone for this… Nor am I upset… Its just the way things have always been… I know everyone has a lot on their plates, therefore I do not want to contribute to it in anyway… Hey… I’m always alright…